it has been a strange turn of events the past few weeks. i somehow feel both alive again yet missing a large piece. it is what it is, i do wish you luck on your journey and I’m saddened i won’t be there but I’ve come to realize it may have just ran its course. I’m sorry for what happened, and ill never make the same mistakes again in this life. but this is learning, this is life you make a mistake you try to correct it or you accept the consequences. regardless of it all thanks, and goodbye
For the most part went well, ate decently, and hit the gym. Now for day 2
Even then, in what can only be called the worst of times, all I could do was look at her and thank God, thank every god there is, or ever was, or will be, and the whole universe, and anyone else I can possibly thank…that I saw that beautiful girl on that train platform, and that I had the guts to stand up, walk over to her, tap her on the shoulder, open my mouth, and speak…
(I’m not dealing with your bullshit, this is how the show ended, everything else had never happened)
The worst shit ever
My biggest fuck up yet. I have lost the simple greatest treasure to fall into my laugh because I was foolish, because I decided to not be the man I should’ve been. I’m sorry it’s all my fault it’s over, I’m sorry for not trying to do something when you gave me the chance. Now I’m going to have to watch you fall into someone else life. I can only hope they treat you like the queen I should have treated you.
I’m going to go away for a little while, because I will drive myself crazy. I love you E, thank you for saving me, for loving me and for believing in me. You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you made me happy when clouds are grey, you will never know dear how much I love you, I hope I find my sunshine again one day.